Making Space for Fluctuating Capacity
This last few weeks has been a lot of recalibration around my health and body capacity, in the midst of this collective dissolution threshold we are all emerging into right now also.
Some things are deeply shifting for me as I’m applying for a new PhD program that would start in January and offer some supportive financial stabilizing as well as exciting scaffolding for my research into Visionary Embodiment.
And I’m still calibrating around a new treatment protocol from my functional medicine doctor that caused a lot of herxing and illness flares last month. I’ve realized that if I continue with the protocol I will need to reconfigure my approach to work and financial support as my capacity will be a lot more variable, so I’ve started a new health fundraiser to help subsidize my living and medical expenses these next two months and I’m sensing in to how to continue with my consulting and facilitating work in a way that allows me to be navigating the emergent timing that is inevitable with this kind of healing journey.
I just shared this access context with all of my consulting clients and felt my whole body breathe so much more easily.
In the past illness and variable capacity has been so entangled with relational misunderstanding and feeling like I’m unprofessional and inconsistent, so it feels so liberating to realize that this is actually ALL ABOUT COMMUNICATING THE CONTEXT and that if I can actually share what I need and how I am being right now, that creates huge space for what is actually present to exist without anything being wrong.
Prayers for so much more of this permissioning for disability access in all the places it is needed.
May we all find the contexts for sharing the honesty of what we are navigating and the gift of being met with the just right support around it.
Disability Access Check-In from Shante':
During the months of November and December, I will be navigating fluctuating capacity as I'm in a new intensive healing protocol for my chronic illness that includes die-off symptoms such as brain fog and increased fatigue.
This means that I will be experimenting with engaging with sessions from a wider range of body experiences if I am having mild pain or fatigue symptoms but still feel capacity to facilitate. There may be times when I am facilitating sessions where I need to be laying down, looking away from the screen, or massaging my face as I'm navigating pain, or times when I can engage on an energetic and non-linear listening level by accompanying you somatically or dropping into ritual process that is more non-verbal, but will be less able to facilitate around more concrete, linear topics.
During this time frame, I may need to reschedule sessions at short notice if I am having pain flares or other chronic illness symptoms, or finish sessions early and reschedule a "part two" if I am feeling increased fatigue in the middle of a session. I may also invite us to shift to a phone call if I'm having difficulty looking at screens or to asynchronous engagement over voice notes if I do not have capacity for a live session.
There may also be times that feel more ambiguous where I'm not sure if it is right timing for me to facilitate where I will reach out to you by text a few hours before our session time to check in about your own energetics and to share where my body is at to see if it is a good match to move forward with a session on that day or if it is of mutual benefit to shift timing or reschedule.
By signing up for a session with me during this particular liminal portal, you are consenting to engage in this specific disability access dance around my emergent capacity. If this kind of fluidity and emergent timing does not feel like a fit for you at this moment in your process, you are welcome to reach back out about working with me in 2025 when I am through this particular healing portal and will have the ability to be more consistent again in terms of timing and capacity.
If you feel called to support my work and my writing as I am going through the portal moment of these next few months with my own healing process from mold exposure, you can make a donation here.